what is it?!

So we are one of those annoying couples that does not want to find out what our little M is.  So I have this habit of referring to baby as it.  People are constantly correcting me.  I promise, once baby is here, I will NOT call it “it”.  Both Trent and I decided together that we were not going to find out.  We were doing so great with this until at 14 weeks the ultrasound tech could identify what baby is.  I did check and M is either a boy or a girl.  Not both, guess we won’t be on Lisa Ling’s Our America….or at least not for that reason (for those of you who have not seen Our America on the OWN network, please watch it.  Lisa (yes, Lisa and I are old pals since her channel one days, so I call her Lisa) is seriously BRILLIANT).  So we can at least breathe easy about that baby is one or the other.  During that ultrasound once I knew that someone knew, I started questioning…should be find out.  But we stayed strong, once we left the room we were back to we don’t want to know.  We then went to our 18 week ultrasound, same feeling but not as strong for me.  Poor Trent REALLY wanted to know then…but again we stayed strong and made them turn the screen at the points where it would be obvious if M is a boy or a girl.  We are now done with ultrasounds so I think that is helping.  It still seems to bother Trent more than it bothers me the not knowing, but when I have asked, if he wants to go ahead and find out he says no. 
Trent for a long time felt that M was a boy so he will refer to M as he, when he does I then respond with “she is doing great today” I really have no idea what I think baby is.  I feel like girl, but I am not sure if I feel that way because I am constantly referring to M as she or not. 
Also, you often hear about women dreaming about their baby and what the baby is.  I dream about baseball, zombies, work, the library…oh well!  Trent keeps dreaming about baby being a boy and then he dreams baby is a girl.  Clearly we are clueless.  BUT we will know soon enough!  YAY!  I am so excited for Trent to walk into the waiting room and announcing…I am the proud papa of a healthy baby……..
xoxoxo